Casper cringes into himself, like he's afraid of Shang Beida, and it makes him feel sick. "We could try to move your soul back into you from Bob, or to go to some other world where she doesn't have any power, if you think my shitty book is fine you could come there I could get Binghe to kidnap you, you don't have to just--wait to die." He's trying so hard to keep his voice quiet and even so Casper doesn't think he's angry at him but it's wobbling dangerously and his breathing is ragged and uneven.

"And you're the only person who would mourn me, so I might as well just give up and jump into the Abyss if I get sent home I guess!" he can't help snapping, then covers his face with his hands. "I'm sorry. I-- please, baobei, do you really want to just--" He swallows hard, trying not to entirely burst into tears. He got one good thing in his miserable fucking life so of course it was never going to last. "I've seen you talking to other people on the boat," he mutters. "You have friends besides me."