"I can't let the Titans take over my world. Even if there's only a little that I can do, I have to... I have to. ... I'm sorry. I think... I think my only option is to keep pushing towards godhood because... I won't have a physical body that can die anymore. Not... not in the same way."

He turns and presses a hand to the other's cheek. "I'm sorry." He can't stop apologizing, won't until Shang Beida feels better. "I don't want this, of course I don't. I don't want to give up. For your sake, for the sake of everyone in my world... even for my own sake, though I don't think that's as important as - as the others." Gods, just... the reality of his father here has brought up so much unpleasant shit.

"I just... it's hard. I have to go back. If I don't, Fate will find some way to do it for me and I won't like how it does that. I know you care about me more than my world but I... I love you, of course I do, you know that. But what I want isn't as important as saving the world. It's just... it's selfish. It's too selfish. The math just doesn't work."