"... I'm sorry." He curls into himself a little more. "Of course I want you to be with me. I just... I know I shouldn't be hopeless but it's hard to find hope and it's driving me crazy. This is the part of the legends that no one tells you about..."

He feels sick. He's making Shang Beida upset, and he trembles a little. "... But I failed. I failed and I died and I have so much to make up for. I hurt kids, Shang Beida. I hurt people who didn't know what was going on because I was too weak. How... how am I ever supposed to make up for that? Of course I deserve punishment for that..."